So this weekend, I had planned to go out for a Thanksgiving meal with some friends. However just before I was leaving I checked my online bank balance, and realized I was in trouble. We still had an electric bill to pay and it was a few days before we got paid.
Now, it has been a gift of Grace from God that this is the first time I’ve really worried about money this year. He has provided so faithfully, and yet I’m still not 100% raised for my support. So the budget has had to be really tight.
It seemed like my only option was to cancel on my friends, go out to town, go to our joint savings account and put some money into our joint current account. So that’s what I did. I cancelled the meal with my friends and let my fear control me. I forgot God’s faithfulness, and His provision.
And I checked the account where my Navs support comes in via (I know our finances sound complicated!), and someone had randomly sent us £100, on top of what they are already giving!
Not only is God faithfull to provide. Not only does He stir people’s hearts to give at the right time. But He also is at work, when we doubt Him, and doubt His goodness.
That’s not the end of the story!
So I’d missed this meal, which was going to be with some of the students in the Navs ministry. And I felt God stir me to confess my unbelief to them. So I called up the host and apologized for how I handled that circumstance. That I didn’t demonstrate the kind of faith in God which is imitable, which inspires and calls people to follow God or trust Him. I I apologized for not trusting God to provide, and setting a very poor example in how to handle my worries…
Their response 1) Complete forgiveness (WOW!)….and then 2) Worshiping God. God showed me grace when I least deserved it, and proved to be lacking in faith. God remained faithful in spite of it all.
You see when God shows us unmerited favor, kindness, provision (GRACE), when we clearly don’t deserve it…He gets the GLORY!
When I am weak, He is strong. Therefore I will boast in my weakness, so that all will see His UNENDING FAITHFULNESS!
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
If you are in a position of leadership, especially “Christian leadership”, consider how sharing your failings and weaknessness, instead of hiding them, may show Him to be glorious.
Glory to God